February New Moon-Intentions and Visualisation

It's new moon today and so the perfect time to sit down and use the energy to plant some seeds in the mind. A meditation is in order.  A meditation a day is always good, but at new moon it's a particularly good idea to visualise peacefully and lovingly the things that we would like to have in our life. 

If those things come from our highest truth, then they will manifest for the good of all. If we want to damage someone, then that too can manifest, but then there is a price to pay, because it will come back to you pretty fast.

Stay clear of vendettas, and stay focused on light and your highest truth. Sometimes it's not that simple or easy, but it always pays off.

It's raining and cold, the perfect time to sit and contemplate things to come. We are still in the thick of winter, so it is a good idea to rest and be quiet and still. 

So: light a candle and sit somewhere quite and comfortable with a straight back. The legs can be crossed or your feet on the floor. With your eyes closed, breath gently in and out, to still the mind for a while until you feel peaceful and centred. Then start to make your intentions for what you have to do. This can be about anything and can be done loud or in your head.

• I intend to be very disciplined and organized with my work, and I intend to be very productive, easily and effortlessly. (I have a lot of things to do, and I tend to be quite scattered and feel easily overwhelmed by it all.)
•  I intend for my work to flow and for those who need my services, to find me easily and effortlessly
• I intend to be in demand for what I have to offer
• I intend to let go of excess weight
• I intend that all my problems be resolved harmoniously for all involved
• I intend to be fulfilled, happy and healthy and to release all blockages
• I intend to be my highest truth at all times diplomatically and lovingly 

The list can go on. In fact write down all the things that you intend to achieve and then once it's on paper, (ideally the paper that you have put out in the full moon), see them done, and more importantly see how having those things make you feel. Once you connect to the feeling, then you are in the vibration and those things inevitably will be drawn into your life.

One word of caution though; to avoid disappointment. If you are obsessed with things, people or situations, then you need to get out of the obsession first, because you are not in alignment with your heart, but you are in fear. It is only when you are aligned that you KNOW without a shade of doubt what it is that you really want. In fact you will be humbled by the truth. 

So if you are obsessed with having a man or woman, let it go, because that's not what you truly want. and if you are obsessed with money, let it go, because that's not what you truly want.

What you truly want, is what those things represent for you; safety, love, freedom and whatever else. 

Then you connect to the energy and then you will get just what makes you feel that way, and most certainly from different sources that you had not even thought of.

Be honest and truthful with yourself, (you don't have to blast it to the world, just yourself) and quietly but surely your life will unfold in the way that it is truly loving.

WTF?

In the last couple of days I have learned a few but very important things. 

Two nights ago, I woke up at 1.30 pm, and could not go back to sleep until 4 am.  I thought. "WTF man, just when I have to get up early, why can't this happen at weekends, when I don't normally have anything to do?"

During the day I had been feeling something hovering over me. It's when some insights are ready to come in, and I need to make the mental space for them to be heard. I did not. I was too busy, and in the evening, at downtime, instead of relaxing quietly or having a meditation I started to watch something on Youtube.

In the middle of the night, as I was lying awake, the insights started to flood in, bright and clear like a crisp, snowy day. When that happens, I normally get up and write them down, but I was too lazy to get up; I did not wan to get up, I wanted to go back to sleep!

As expected I got up early, tired as hell, and got on with what I had to do. Then I wrote down the insights that were by now quite blurry. I did my best to remember and promised myself that for future references, I will never ignore the signs again and make space as, if and when, in my head. 

Tired and exhausted from the day, I went to bed and I really wanted to have a good night sleep. I remembered something about salt. I got up and put a few grains of pink salt on my tongue and waited five minutes for it to dissolve,  before drinking some water and turning off the lights. I was fast asleep in no time. 

The next thing I heard was some noise from the cats. I looked at the clock it was 7.30 am. I smiled; 'Boy, that was a nice, long, refreshing sleep' I thought loudly! (how loud can a thought be?)

What are the two things I learnt? Just to recap:

Salt; take salt, when you cannot sleep, it always works. And always make time, always to relax and connect before you go to bed!

Wasn't I pleased this morning to start a new day! And it was sunny !

Revisiting Old Wounds

Is there an end to healing? I do ask myself this question very often. 

I go through spells of dry times, when things tick along nicely and everything is fine, then suddenly out of nowhere old thoughts come up, anger, resentment and fear; good, old fear. 

You know those times that it feels like your mind has become and old, broken record, and you start thinking about what happened, and what you should have said and this and that...

I wanted to take some White Chestnut, but I thought, 'I think this state of mind needs attention in a different way.' Of course I resisted like hell, and it took me a whole week to finally find the time to want to do it. 

It happened over the weekend. I set up the space for the healing, and connected. I gave up resistance, I said I was willing to change, to grow and to know what was really bothering me. The healing always starts in the same way; you look at the emotions that are bothering you in the now, at the people that trigger those emotions with their actions, and you ask "what is this related to?"

The answers always come. It was over a good hour and half that I was able to track back some old wounds that had new memories attached. 

Of course it was painful, of course it was unpleasant and of course it was about my parents, specially my mother. I felt old anger again, but it did not last long. What was more important was the decisions I had made about my life as a result of the set ups that my mother had laid out for me.

It was those decisions and consequent choices that had created the blockages in the present about certain aspects of my life that did not want to budge. 

I have come a long way, considering where I started over 15 years ago, and my life is totally different from what it was and I certainly am a very different person. But these two particular issues had not been keen to go.

So very patiently and painstakingly, with clear intention and determination I let the images come back up and I allowed myself to remember. It was so incredibly clear and painful at the same time.  I let go all the emotions felt and then one by one the beliefs and agreements, as they came that I had made with my mother for my own safety. Those agreements were the blockages to specific things in my life that were at arm reach and still I could not grab. 

The healing and to discoveries that came wit it, were so liberating! It took me a couple of days to let the discoveries settle. 

Of course once the old programs were gone I had to put some new ones in.  When I finished, the

feelings of discomfort, anger, resentment were gone together with the anger and resentment I felt again for my mother during the healing. The broken record in my head also had quitened down and I felt pretty connected again. 

Now that those agreements are gone, I am faced with this aspect of my life as a brand, new adventure. I have been holding myself back for so long, because of the hidden fears of what might happen to me if I followed my call, that suddenly to be free to do whatever my heart tells me to do, feels exciting but also  if feels like "oh my, where shall I start?". 

One thing is good to remind myself of is that when there are no negative associations with our plans, all we have to do when we don't know what to do is to ask: 'What is the next step, how do I do this, where do I go to get this?' And so on. And then we are impulsed to take a certain action, to go to a certain place, ideas come as we follow the threads. Then we ask the next question and so on.

When we are free of negative attachments (of any kind)   this is how life becomes effortless. The work has to be put in of course, but it's a completely different ball game.

So now that the coast is clear, let's see where this adventure is going to take me... 

Exciting!!!