It happened on Saturday evening after the workshop. We all gathered for a drink at the bar, and we got chatting. I had been thinking of relocating to this part of town since January. So I was chatting, to the lady organiser who I had met before, about my plans.
She had always been very supportive of my work, so when I told her what I was planning to do, which she had asked me about, her reply felt like someone had pulled the rug from under my feet. It took me a few days to realise that she touched a nerve and that I needed to heal something.
And healing indeed I did two days later. I had come to the workshop with expectations. And expectations were what needed to be tweaked, because those expectations were not mine.
During the self healing, (which is always very targeted and clear) I realised that I was carrying around opposite expectations in my energy field; my mother's, which were; 'as a girl you don't stand a chance in the world' and my father's; 'I put all my expectations on you, and I know you will succeed.'
Without going into the intricate and private details, it was clear that I had been operating from and 'trying' to fulfil two opposite programs at the same time and that of course had a lot of emotional charge that needed looking at.
I felt the pain, the sadness and the anger at the realisation as to how I was so desperate to please both parents, and how impossible it was to fulfil two opposite expectations at once. I did not want to believe my mother's beliefs, and I did not want to be put under pressure to succeed.
Out of love and need, I took on my parent's fears. How common is that, I ask? How many of us do that, taking on what is thrown at them, feeling vulnerable and helpless?
What everyone does when unpleasant events happen, (I have already talked about this, but it always applies) is that we operate from the need to change what happened then. That is why unconsciously we recreate a similar situation, where we will experience rejection for something we want to do, in the same way that we experienced it then.
When a woman rejects your ideas and you feel really hurt, more often than not you are reliving what your mother used to do to you and you are still stuck there, wanting to change her reactions.
I healed it by connecting to the emotions and stated; "I give up my parent's expectations, good and bad." The words triggered the hurt and then tears. Tears are a way for the brain to to release the accumulated emotions from the field, and it's a very powerful tool when used it in a targeted manner.
Of course I went into a little more details, but that was basically the opening line.
Your statement gives a command to your field and the brain takes it on. You have deleted all expectations that were not yours. Then of course you have to put something in, to reprogram the brain.
We are all highly programmable beings, and we get programmed all the time. But once we understand this great truth, what we do is to delete the programs that no longer serve us with all the emotional implications, and we replace them with others of our choice.
This is how we use our free will, using positive language that describes our intentions about what we want to have or do with our life.
When we reprogram the brain from our highest truth, by stating what we want, that's when things start to move. And it might be that it's the same things that we were asking for before. But if before we were asking from the need to be approved, now we are asking from a place of alignment with spirit. (Healing connects you with your emotions, which aligns you with the spiritual part of yourself, your highest truth.)
That totally changes the dynamical interaction with the energy in the universe.
Asking out of need means you are asking from fear, and when in fear the energy is limited and coming from people or situations. But when you are asking from the source within you, (and you know the difference, we all do), the things you ask for carry a different weight, and that's when everything start to fall into place.
So although I was very misplaced by that lady's reaction, I did not hold it against her. I needed to heal something. We always create what we have in life, and if we look at the whys we can use it to heal the past and to increase awareness as another piece is added to the jigsaw.
Of course that's not how I saw it on Saturday night, but that's how it works. You get upset, you talk about it until you are fed up of talking about it, and then it dawns on you, and when you get it, the rest is relatively easy.
