When We Are Unwell

When we are not well, we can do nothing but rest and sleep. And sometimes that is really all that is required to get back on our feet. Lots of water with a few grains of Himalayan salt and two drops of Crab Apple for cleansing the system, and really lots of rest and sleep. 

That's what I have done over the past 24 hours, and I have almost totally recovered. There is nothing like a short spell of unwellness to make you appreciate health and well being.

I rested and slept, and dragged myself out three times to walk the dog, (that was tough, but when you live on your own, sometimes there are no alternatives)and I had time to reflect on a few things.

One of the things that has become very clear is that I do not want to be a doormat or a servant to anyone any more. I am a kind person, I am giving and always putting everyone before me. Is that really kindness, or is that fear of being judged as mean?

I had to think about that. I can't say no. I say yes because I want to please, I force myself to accept invitations for fear of upsetting the person, for fear of being 'nasty'. I say yes to host someone because I want to be seen as such an amazing person, and then I am the one who is always losing out.

Being unwell has helped me to appreciate my space, and my strength. Despite being on my own, I take care of my health in a natural way, I don't panic, I don't despair, I take charge and listen to my own wisdom that tells me just what to do. And in between snoozes I have realized how stressed I have been for the demands being imposed on me. So very honestly I said 'no, I am sorry, I don't want to do this, because it's an imposition on me and I don't want to go through this stress again.'

Of course that did not go down too well, but as I did not feel guilty about it, the person capitulated and said, "I have found another way". 

There are many reason as to why we become unwell, but those reasons are just the means through which the body is telling us that we need to stop because something needs to be looked at.

So maybe next time, I will listen instead of having to go through this again!!