A Bit of Rough to Get to The Smooth

We all go through the rough times and they are not pleasant.

I have just been through one. Other people had been feeling the same. I don't know if it was the planets influence (probably) but it was definitely unpleasant.

If you have been following me for a while, you know that whenever something happens that rattles you, you have something to heal. Whatever the other person does that is really irritating you, you know that a part of you is creating that, so that you can resolve something that happened in the past.

After a few days of feeling really rough, I was getting myself into a right state, angrier and angrier. I was so angry and frustrated, feeling really trapped in my anger, unable to see a way out that I started to feel suicidal. I kept saying that if I could not understand why I am always in these unpleasant situations then I might as well die...

Now that's a bit strong even for me. I used to feel this way many years ago, when I was really stuck and lost. But not now. So after doing a healing with someone on the phone, and feeling really sick physically, (something I ate that did not agree with me), I tried to get to the bottom of it. I felt too sick and nauseous. I tried to vomit, but nothing came out, the food had already been digested and was in the system, the best thing to do was to sleep over it. Seven fortyfive in the evening I went to bed.

I slept and the following morning, the answers I needed were finally available.

The healing was very quick and a bit painful. What I found out was that when I was four, I had decided that I was never going to be happy again. I won't go into the details of how that happened, (too long to explain in a post), but I can say that it was so powerful that whatever was bothering me suddenly was not important any more. My anger had disappeared, and I was left with an intense desire to put the pieces together. If someone decides not to be happy so that they can be safe, guess what? The cells in the body resonate at that vibration so that they draw to your life all the experiences and people to fulfill that need! Oh my, no wonder my life has always been the way that it has.

A bit of happiness and a lot of unhappiness or complete isolation to avoid being happy! I was following orders: 'I don't want to be happy'!

I was very elated at this discovery, to say the least. So of course I replaced that strong program with an equally powerful one: 'From now on I want and intend to be deliriously happy, happy to be loved, respected, admired, wanted by people and things that make me happy, I intend to be happy through my creativity, my work, my skills, my living every day in connection with my  highest truth.'

These are powerful statements that create a new vibration in the body, for the body to draw to my current reality situations and people to fulfill them.

Stay tuned...